No one understands.
Did you ever sit down and hear me talk.
Is everything my fault?
Look in your Inbox.
When was the last time you said something nice to me.
I looked at mine.
I don't know.
Everything is a lie.
I choose not to look at your faults but you chose to see only mine.
I choose to forgive you because of our love but you chose to look at what you want in me over our love.
等你说爱我 你是一份久违的默契
好熟悉好亲昵
就像附近的空气
也许跟你早在前生已约定
细赏擦身的风景规划该走的路径
你就是我生命的星星总给我无边的照明
究竟是爱情是友情却不是太清醒
爱我等你说声爱我
给我一份承诺
不要让我生命再迷惑
爱我等你说声爱我
不要躲着沉默
压抑不好过
请你在乎我
在这绚丽人生旅途上
好风光好声音
也要有人来肯定
也许跟你早在前生已约定
细赏擦身的风景规划该走的路径
你就是我生命的星星总给我无边的照明
究竟是爱情是友情却不是太清醒
爱我等你说声爱我
给我一份承诺
不要让我生命再迷惑
爱我等你说声爱我
不要躲着沉默
压抑不好过请你在乎我
不要再闪躲
如果你是我最后结果
一起来走过旅途甜和酸喜和忧痛和快乐
只要你爱我
对我说声爱我
给我多点把握
让我抓紧爱你的线索
爱我请你承认爱我
我要让你快乐
剩下的旅程要你陪著我(有你在乎我)
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I attended the PAYM Convention at Suntec Convention Centre. It was scheduled to start at 1.30p.m. I met up with Jingkai to go together. We took a cab as we were late and we arranged to meet Alex, Bernice, Chee Meng, Michael at the lobby. When Jingkai and I reached, we saw Jiayi and Esther at the second floor and gestured them to come down. Then together we made our way to the convention hall on the sixth floor. We registered first and got our tag and lanyard. Maybe we could use it for Christmas Carnival. Hahaha... We then waited for Jeffrey to join us. I told Jingkai to go to the side counter to ask for the orange PAYM shirt and Chee Meng and Michael went too to get a set for Andrew and Jeffrey. After Jeffrey arrived, we went in to get a table and we were short of a seat. Jeffrey 'volunteered' to go first LoL so there was us five guys sitting in one table and the three gals sitting in another.
While waiting for the Convention to start, Bernice came over and asked me to request for the three gals who we did not know to change seats with them so all eight of us could sit together. I was not sure how to get the ball rolling. I asked the gal in the middle who happened to be looking in my direction and I tried using my most humble tone to get my request. LoL I succeeded! and I acted like a gentleman by helping them to shift their glasses.
Gurmit Singh was the host for the day and he was very good. Before Mr Teo Chee Hian, The Guest of Honour arrived, he played some games and we 'sabo' Chee Meng. He was to go on stage and compete with the representative of the other side of the hall the longest sound with one breath. Chee Meng shouted very loudly and he only 'survived' 15 seconds. LoL The other guy lasted 20 seconds. Not long after the convention started with the singing of the National Anthem. It was followed by a skit presentation of the PAYM route to present. There was a short tea break and we wolfed down the sandwiches and cookies ahaha. Andrew SMSed me saying that he is not coming over anymore as he is very tired and drunk. -_-''' Next was the presentation by the Chairman and two Vice-Chairmen of the Central Youth Council, the decision-making body of PAYM about the recommendations made by YEC members across Singapore. Then it was DINNER TIME !!!
We wanted to take a picture with Gurmit Singh before going down to the gallery for dinner but we are pressed for time and there were too many people queuing. On top of that, the police is cordoning off the area soon for the PAP Conference. So we went down for dinner soon. As Jiayi, Esther and Bernice got to go down first since they are ladies, we got a table to ourselves and we went to get the food. I took more than my fair share as I thought we will be sharing so in the end I ate them myself. We finally got to take a picture with Gurmit Singh and he was a gentleman and very friendly.
After the dinner, we chatted about the Christmas decoration and walked around Suntec to have a look at the Christmas decoration and see what we could buy. In the end, it was arranged that Bernice, Jingkai and I will go to Concourse to buy the decorations while Jiayi will decorate the CC with the help of the campers on Tuesday.
Finally the funds for the SuperNova Christmas Carnival was approved but it is not sure when we can get our hands on the funds. Sigh... Time is running out and there are so many things to do. I am really very tied up by all these. Three weeks is a very short period. PENGZ!
We had a SuperNova Christmas Carnival meeting today at 7 p.m. The funds from Young Change Makers are not officially approved yet and that got me stuck. I also have to wait for Yaoxing to transfer me the funds even if we got the funds. So no choice, we have to settle the other stuff except the purchasing. It was a VERY rowdy meeting, I guessed they like it that way and I think I need panadol soon.
I started with the Haunted House sub-com. They were all prepared with everything except the purchasing and some minor details. Next was the refreshment side. More was to be done with the fondue and popcorn and candy floss to be settled. Then the Games Room. Absolutely rowdy and noisy. Funny how two girls can make so much noice. We have to go down again to confirm the games, set the rules and decide the prizes. Then the 'War' Games. Since Kevin is working alone at the moment, I have to help him more with it regarding the rules and preparation. Safety and Security is fine, with the lanyards being settled by Yingchee (In the end she told me she didn't have enough, LoL) and the namelist of all the manpower we have and the first aiders breifing on the actual day. After that, I mentioned to them about the SmartTutition (I wonder how many will sign up) and the CC decorations. I split them into two groups and we tried to gather some ideas. Ken said the decorations have to be up by Sunday. Trouble Trouble Trouble. We'll try then.
After the meeting, I went to meet Daniel for a late dinner and went to his place to slack for a while. I walked home later. I still have to attend the PAYM convention later. Bother.
Something to add to the Camp STAR;
After we went to 7-11 to buy alcoholic drinks during the first night, we went to play cards in the canteen and Andrew's face turned very red. We didn't have beer and his face was actually redder than mine when I am not a good drinker at all. And he kept saying 'Wa Bo Zui' ( I Am Not Drunk )
I found that Andrew is quite a sicko. Similar to SuperNova Camp, whenever the facilitators and campers had their meals, there were lots of meal boxes to be cleared. The rubbish bins will be filled to the brim with all these lunch and dinner boxes and it is quite a physical task to clear them. I should know; I did it for SuperNova Camp!!! Funny how Logistics I/C has to clear them (Clearing lunch and dinner boxes are related to logistics???)
Anyway, after helping to clear part of the rubbish, Hyder (Camp Assistant Main Coordinator) found many traces of ants crawling to the rubbish bins and they had a hard time getting rid of the ants. We used water to wash them away but soon, more ants will make their way towards the rubbish bins. So our dear Andrew got the boiling water in the kettle and poured the scalding water onto the ants, killing them. It's fine if he did it once or twice BUT he seemed to make it a habit and continuously boiled water and poured onto the ants. And he really seemed to enjoy killing the ants.
He did that during the second night and during the third day he was at it again. What's funny is that he scalded himself once when he poured the water and he actually blamed the ants for it. -_-''' And he continued the 'ritual'. I presumed he must have killed thousands of ants by these numerous boiling and pouring. He replied, 'Nope, Many Thousands'
*Clap* *Clap*
I just came back from Camp STAR (Sportsmanship, Teamwork and Respect). It was organised mostly by the Sports Secretariat of the YEC. Lasted from 24-26 November 2006. I was aching all over and slightly under the weather. It seemed like one long day as we didn't really sleep during the whole duration. Overall, the camp was not bad and quite fun but unlike Andrew, Alex, Chee Meng and Michael who were facilitators, I was a coordinator so we had different experiences. I was basically the basketball and camp coordinator and Cassandra, Desmond and I are in the 'Breakfast Department' Haha. We have to prepare the bread and spread jam and kaya for the 20-odd campers. In the end, Cassandra and I didn't even feel like having breakfast.
I reached the camp which is held in Ping Yi Secondary School in the early evening. They were playing tchoukball then. Desmond and I hang around until Alex and Andrew came at night. We then had some food before we went to join them in the AVA. We didn't really sleep and Cassandra, Michael, Desmond, Andrew and I went to the 7-11 nearby and bought some alcoholic drinks and a deck of cards. (That deck of cards was the beginning of some mental torture) We then went back to the school canteen and played 'Big 2'. One of the camper then complained of chest pain and I asked Andrew and Cassandra to attend to her as beside me, Andrew was the only one with a First Aid cert. It seemed nothing major, probably due to the tchoukball exercise earlier in the day. We told her to rest and monitored her situation.
Later some (no no ...... MOST) of the campers complained of hunger as they whined that the dinner's portion was too little and too spicy. I told them to rest first while we tried to get some food. I called Rezal, the camp's main coordinator and he said they will be fine. However he got some biscuits back when I mentioned it to him the second time. Alas, after getting scolded by Rezal, they went to sleep and only a couple of them wanted the biscuits. Well no choice, if they really got gastrics problems because of this, we would have been in deep trouble.
The next day was learning sessions for football, floorball and basketball. They started the morning session for football. Steven Tan, from Tampines Rovers FC was their guest coach. He was a former National Team player and was known as the 'Super Sub'. They seemed to enjoy the session, with Michael and Chee Meng taking part too. After lunch was learning sessions for floorball and basketball. They split into two groups of two teams. First session of basketball was for White and Green teams.
I got Eugene, Xiao Bai, Jianhui, Gordon and Leon to come and help out. Eugene was supposed to be the coach but he told me he can't teach them the basics as he was not sure of the proper way to go about it. In the end I have to take over. I taught them the basics such as dribbling, passing, lay up and shooting. Later I let them play 5-on-5 on half court. The sun was really strong that afternoon and I felt it was rather hard to teach them all the basics all at one time.
When we learned basketball and trained, we had different time slots for various trainings and we often took a long time to learn the basics properly. All I can do then is to teach them some fundamentals and hopefully they will take an interest in the sports. Of course, the training sessions will appear dull and boring compared to the rest but I rather they learn proper fundamentals rather than not learning anything at all and enjoy playing a wild game.
Something unrelated to the camp ; We actually had planned to go to Ministry of Sound (MOS) for the People Association Youth Movement (PAYM) 35th Anniversary event but after entering the camp, we realised our schedules are rather tight so we dropped the idea. BUT Kelvin (YEC's Membership Secretary) wanted to go as he just finished his GCE 'O' Level (YES, he's only 16) and he was quite eager to go. In the end he called us and wanted to meet up with us. He then reached Ping Yi Secondary. Michael, Andrew and I then arranged to go ahead. Chee Meng and Alex wanted to stay as they wanted to assist their teams. So Andrew came over to my place and showered and we caught a cab. The driver didn't know about MOS and we have to call and check with Michael. When we reached, we were disappointed. It's just a Music Mix Night, with a competiton. Complimentary Drinks only for the first 150 people. I don't think everyone took just one. So we stayed a while and left. We then went to Bedok Interchange to get some supper and went back to the camp. Kelvin went home.
Back to the camp ; By now we were rather tired and Cassandra didn't want to sleep ...... (Remember the mental torture of the deck of cards?) So we kept playing 'Big 2' ...... By then Desmond was back from his sister's wedding and after a while we went to sleep.
The last part of the camp was the tchoukball competition. It was an inter-team competition and they set their own rules and play soon went underway. In the end Blue team won all their 3 matches and emerged Champion. We then had a Team Facilitators VS Team All-Star. Having played Tchoukball the first time, I was very clumsy and played the game like a basketball match with all the fakes and passes. LoL I left early to prepare the buffet lunch with Desmond and Team All-Star won. LoL. After that it was lunch, cleaning up and evaluation of camp. When we were done, it's about 5 p.m. and we left the camp. Initially Andrew, Alex, Chee Meng and I wanted to get a drink but two campers came along. I was so tired that I fell asleep there. Following which, I went home to bath and sleep. I took Monday and Tuesday to recover from the fatigue of the camp.
Afterthoughts;
The camp overall was fun and we bonded even closer. But maybe the campers were only Sec 1s and Sec 2s, I didn't really gel with them. I think sometimes they are too childish and naive and took many things for granted, for example, our care and concern for them. Another reason would be that I was a coordinator and not a facilitator so I didn't get to mix with them and got to know them better. We seem to have a distance between us and I didn't really get to talk to them as their facilitators will be there to help them. So I didn't know them like some of the SuperNova campers. And it might be better if the basketball session was split into two for them to absorb better.
I twisted my knee today while playing basketball. An old injury but I chose not to go for the operation. There's a long story behind it. Maybe I will explain further in future entries if there are people interested to 'hear' it. So I guess I will be out for a few days in terms of sports.
Well... this should be quite a lengthy entry. So brace yourself for it ...... Here we go ......
After the games, I walked with Xiao Weijie, a basketball friend to my place and waited for the bus with him. He had some family problems and we were chatting along the way. I can't do much but just suggested some ways to improve the situation. I knew him a long way back, around 6 to 7 years back when I just started hanging around Tampines 209 to play basketball and joined the CC team. We were in the same team once or twice only but we often played together outside. There was one period we were often going out together to hang out and play basketball with my ex-girlfriend (QT) Haiz...... His girlfriend then don't play basketball but she was always around.
While chatting on MSN, I saw one of my former school mate's nick stating that she has rashes. Yes, you KPOs out there, she is a gal. Actually I don't know how to state our connection. Former schoolmates? Friends? ECA mates? Or ......
One thing; she is definitely not pretty, attractive or cute. Average? Hardly I think. In fact she will blend in any crowds. And No, I am not insulting not putting her down.
She was from NPCC (for some of you out there; National Police Cadet Corps) during our secondary school days and I was from SJAB ( St. John Ambulance Brigade ) Every ECA (back then it's ECA) was fighting for honours in their areas, typical Dunmanian style. and of course, we were fighting for honours too (For me, it's more of slacking). We were also junior Librarians back then. That means we have shifts to look after the library once or twice a week. The Library In-Charge then was an assistant in the Science Labs. It was rather fun and interesting to look after the library, stack the books and key in the data entries. She and I often stayed in the library to help out after classes and went home together. To many, she was a quiet and unsociable girl but we got along fine. When we were in Upper Secondary, we were promoted to senior Librarians. I was tasked to look after the Multi-Media Room and was even given the keys to the Room so i could open the Room for other students everyday while she was tasked to look after the Main Library. We also had to plan shifts for Senior and Junior Librarians. Some of our school mates didn't really like her but I found it comfortable to work with her and chat with her. We soon spent all our free times in the library. Later on something happened but I forgot the incident and we soon distanced. It was weird having a close friend vanishing from your daily life. Our ties and connections hovered around friends and relationship but we never got down to clear the air. After so many years, she's still so stubborn and 'anti-social'. LoL Again, that's all for now.
Speaking of school mates, I have another friend; a classmate called Yuhui. GUY! We were also close friends but lost contact for some time. But recently we maintained contact through MSN, hopefully I can meet him up soon and have a chat with him. It seems he is going through a rough patch too. I'll update about him in the future.
Hmmm.... I guess that's all for now...... In short, nothing much about my day.
Memories Memories
Memories of Yesterday
Well it's been a while ......
Recently many things happened to my friends; one suffered a setback in his four-year relationship, one was imprisoned and another was facing personal problems.
Yesterday we had the SuperNova Christmas Carnival Meeting. We made some progress but we still have a long way to go. So keep hanging on guys, we need every help we can garner. Suddenly I have to head the project, wonder wonder..... let's get everything done people.
It's a messy meeting, with some of the stuff unclear. I should have done better but deep down i still feel strange about taking over this way and I don't like the idea of taking over like this and I think it is unfair to dump part of the work onto the facilitators and campers since they should have a longer time frame to settle other matters. I don't know if it is right to take over this way, it just feels weird and strange. Sigh.
After the meeting, Andrew and I went to Xiao Bai's place for our weekly training; mahjong.
Andrew displayed his never-dying spirit and marvellous mahjong skills. I was so overwhelmed. I guess he is ready for any mahjong compeition.
Today Andrew and I slept until late afternoon before waking up to get ready for Yinghui's surprise birthday celebrations. I arranged with Yinghui to meet me as we are 'supposedly' to go downtown to buy some stuff when in fact Andrew, Chee Meng, Cassandra, Gao Yang, Yingxian and myself are to buy a cake and celebrate for her. Everything went according to plan except for the surprise part. She wasn't too surprised -_-''' We ate the cake and went to play pool. I won Andrew woah! and we switched to billard as the gals are playing pool. Yingxian, Yinghui and Gao Yang left early to play basketball. We joined them later and played 3-On-3. Andrew, Yingxian and me VS Cassandra, Gao Yang and Chee Meng. I think Chee Meng got the sports wrong. I guessed he thought we are playing rugby. *Scratch* *Scratch*
After that we had a drink and went home. I felt quite tired after this half-day celebrations. Diao. Hope you enjoyed the celebration, Yinghui. Cheers.
I felt quite drained and uptight about the Christmas Carnival. On one hand, I want to set things right and make the carnival a success but on the other, there is insufficient support and I never felt right about taking over this way. It seems everything is done half way and left dangling there. Hang on.
